Partea a 2-a \u2013 Continuarea pove\u0219tii \ud83d\udc49
Fiica mea, Mara, st\u0103tea \u00een fa\u021ba mea, cu m\u00e2inile str\u00e2nse \u00een jurul unei c\u0103ni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mam\u0103, pot s\u0103-\u021bi spun ceva f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 te superi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Orice.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A ezitat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Eu \u0219tiam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ce \u0219tiai?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i-a cobor\u00e2t privirea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 C\u0103 tata te lovea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u0103mas cu lingura \u00een m\u00e2n\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ce?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218tiam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mara, voi era\u021bi \u00een camera voastr\u0103. Eu am avut grij\u0103 s\u0103\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
S-a uitat la mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu, mam\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Lingura mi-a sc\u0103pat din m\u00e2n\u0103 \u0219i a lovit gresia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ani \u00eentregi \u00eemi spusesem acela\u0219i lucru.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Copiii nu aud.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Copiii dorm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Copiii sunt \u00een camera cealalt\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Copiii nu \u00een\u021beleg.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mara avea 14 ani \u0219i tocmai \u00eemi spunea c\u0103 toate minciunile cu care m\u0103 lini\u0219tisem fuseser\u0103 doar at\u00e2t: minciuni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De c\u00e2nd \u0219tiai?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A ridicat din umeri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De mult.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De ce nu mi-ai spus?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A r\u0103mas c\u00e2teva secunde t\u0103cut\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 atunci c\u00e2nd eram mai mic\u0103\u2026 credeam c\u0103 a\u0219a e la oamenii mari.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am a\u0219ezat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Asta m-a zdrobit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu Sorin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu divor\u021bul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu lunile \u00een care mama refuzase s\u0103 vorbeasc\u0103 cu mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ci faptul c\u0103 fata mea crescuse crez\u00e2nd c\u0103 frica, \u021bipetele \u0219i loviturile f\u0103ceau parte dintr-o c\u0103snicie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cemi puneam perna peste cap c\u00e2nd v\u0103 auzeam cert\u00e2ndu-v\u0103, a continuat ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi-am dus m\u00e2na la gur\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De ce n-ai venit la mine?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mi-era fric\u0103 s\u0103 nu se enerveze \u0219i mai tare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mara a venit l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i atunci s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat ceva care m-a durut cumplit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Copilul meu m-a luat pe mine \u00een bra\u021be.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mam\u0103, nu pl\u00e2nge.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ar fi trebuit s\u0103 fie invers.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Eu trebuia s\u0103 fiu omul care \u00eei spunea ei c\u0103 este \u00een siguran\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cemi pare r\u0103u.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pentru ce?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 am crezut c\u0103 nu vede\u021bi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mara s-a desprins pu\u021bin de mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Eu m\u0103 bucur c\u0103 am plecat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am privit-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Chiar te bucuri?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A dat din cap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Acum, c\u00e2nd aud cheia \u00een u\u0219\u0103, nu m\u0103 mai sperii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N-am mai putut spune nimic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen clipa aceea am \u00een\u021beles c\u0103 nu plecasem doar pentru mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Plecasem \u0219i pentru copiii mei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ca fiica mea s\u0103 nu \u00eenve\u021be c\u0103 o femeie bun\u0103 este femeia care rabd\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i ca b\u0103iatul meu s\u0103 nu creasc\u0103 v\u0103z\u00e2nd c\u0103 un b\u0103rbat poate speria femeia de l\u00e2ng\u0103 el, iar diminea\u021ba toat\u0103 familia trebuie s\u0103 se comporte ca \u0219i cum nu s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat nimic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Divor\u021bul a mers \u00eenainte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N-a fost simplu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Au fost acte, discu\u021bii, repro\u0219uri \u0219i zile \u00een care Sorin \u00eemi spunea c\u0103 distrusesem familia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Uneori m\u0103 \u00eentrebam dac\u0103 f\u0103cusem bine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi \u00eemi aminteam ce spusese Mara:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eAcum, c\u00e2nd aud cheia \u00een u\u0219\u0103, nu m\u0103 mai sperii.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i nu mai aveam nicio \u00eendoial\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama, \u00een schimb, nu mi-a vorbit aproape opt luni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Rudelor le spunea:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 I s-a ur\u00e2t cu binele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dac\u0103 cineva \u00eei amintea c\u0103 Sorin fusese agresiv, r\u0103spundea:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00centr-o c\u0103snicie sunt doi. Nu \u0219tim noi ce-a fost \u00eentre ei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La \u00eenceput m\u0103 \u00eenfuria.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dup\u0103 aceea am \u00eencetat s\u0103 mai \u00eencerc s-o conving.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cemi construisem o via\u021b\u0103 nou\u0103 \u00eentr-un apartament mai mic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu aveam curtea de dinainte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu aveam toate lucrurile pe care le str\u00e2nseser\u0103m \u00een aproape \u0219aptesprezece ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar aveam lini\u0219te.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i abia c\u00e2nd am avut-o am \u00een\u021beles c\u00e2t de mult \u00eemi lipsise.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Au trecut aproape doi ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00centr-o dup\u0103-amiaz\u0103 de toamn\u0103, cineva a sunat la u\u0219\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u00e2nd am deschis, era mama.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u021ainea \u00een m\u00e2ini o saco\u0219\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Am adus ni\u0219te mere pentru copii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u0103mas am\u00e2ndou\u0103 \u00een prag.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu \u0219tiam dac\u0103 s\u0103 o \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219ez.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nici ea nu p\u0103rea s\u0103 \u0219tie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Intr\u0103, mam\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i-a scos pantofii \u0219i s-a a\u0219ezat pe marginea canapelei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Copiii s-au bucurat s-o vad\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mara venise deja l\u00e2ng\u0103 ea \u0219i \u00eei povestea despre \u0219coal\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama o privea atent.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Doamne, ce mare te-ai f\u0103cut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Aproape c\u00e2t mama.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 O \u00eentreci imediat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Au r\u00e2s.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Eu le priveam din buc\u0103t\u0103rie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dup\u0103 un timp, copiii s-au retras \u00een camerele lor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u0103mas singure.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama \u00ee\u0219i fr\u0103m\u00e2nta degetele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 E frumos aici.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 E mic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dar e frumos.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ne ajunge.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A t\u0103cut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi, dup\u0103 aproape doi ani, mama mi-a pus \u00eentrebarea pe care a\u0219 fi avut nevoie s-o aud \u00een acea duminic\u0103 \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103ria ei de var\u0103:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 E\u0219ti bine?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am privit-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da, mam\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A dat din cap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dup\u0103 c\u00e2teva secunde a \u00eentrebat:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 E\u0219ti\u2026 fericit\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Aproape c\u0103 m-a durut cuv\u00e2ntul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen urm\u0103 cu doi ani \u00eel rostise ca pe un moft.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eCe-\u021bi trebuie \u021bie at\u00e2ta fericire?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Acum m\u0103 \u00eentreba dac\u0103 o g\u0103sisem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama \u0219i-a cobor\u00e2t ochii spre m\u00e2ini.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Eu n-am fost.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu am spus nimic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Cu taic\u0103-tu, vreau s\u0103 spun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu. Nu \u0219tii tot.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u0103mas t\u0103cut\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Au fost ani \u00een care, c\u00e2nd \u00eel auzeam venind pe poart\u0103, m\u0103 uitam repede prin cas\u0103 s\u0103 v\u0103d dac\u0103 e ceva care l-ar putea sup\u0103ra.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi-am amintit instantaneu ce spusese Mara.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cheia \u00een u\u0219\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Aceea\u0219i fric\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dou\u0103 genera\u021bii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Atunci de ce mi-ai cerut s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n cu Sorin?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama \u0219i-a \u0219ters ochii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 pe vremea mea nu plecai.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Puteai s\u0103 pleci.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A cl\u0103tinat \u00eencet din cap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Poate c\u0103 puteam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A urmat o pauz\u0103 lung\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Numai c\u0103 eu nu \u0219tiam asta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103 nu mai vorbea despre vecini.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu mai vorbea despre ru\u0219ine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu mai vorbea despre ce trebuie s\u0103 suporte o femeie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Vorbea despre ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 C\u00e2nd mi-ai spus c\u0103 vrei s\u0103 divor\u021bezi, m-am \u00eenfuriat pe tine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dar cred c\u0103 nu eram furioas\u0103 doar pe tine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am a\u0219teptat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Eram furioas\u0103 pentru c\u0103 tu f\u0103ceai ceva ce eu n-am avut curajul s\u0103 fac.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am sim\u021bit c\u0103 mi se pune un nod \u00een g\u00e2t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a continuat:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dac\u0103 tu aveai dreptul s\u0103 spui \u201egata\u201d, \u00eensemna c\u0103 poate \u00eel avusesem \u0219i eu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i atunci am \u00een\u021beles.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Femeia care m\u0103 p\u0103lmuise \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103ria de var\u0103 nu ap\u0103ra doar c\u0103snicia mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ap\u0103ra povestea pe care \u0219i-o spusese ei \u00eens\u0103\u0219i aproape toat\u0103 via\u021ba.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u0103 trebuise s\u0103 rabde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u0103 a\u0219a f\u0103ceau femeile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u0103 asta \u00eensemna familie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru c\u0103 dac\u0103 accepta c\u0103 eu aveam dreptul s\u0103 plec, trebuia s\u0103 se uite \u00een urm\u0103 \u0219i s\u0103 accepte ceva mult mai dureros:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
c\u0103 \u0219i ea ar fi putut avea o alt\u0103 via\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Te-am lovit \u00een ziua aia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ai venit la mine pentru c\u0103 te lovise el \u0219i te-am lovit \u0219i eu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N-am r\u0103spuns.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 M-am g\u00e2ndit de multe ori la asta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i-a ridicat ochii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Iart\u0103-m\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu i-am spus c\u0103 nu conteaz\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Conta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu i-am spus nici c\u0103 uitasem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu uitasem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am mutat l\u00e2ng\u0103 ea \u0219i i-am luat m\u00e2na.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu vreau ca Mara s\u0103 \u00eenve\u021be ce am \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat noi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a privit spre camera nepoatei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nici eu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dac\u0103 \u00eentr-o zi vine la mine \u0219i-mi spune c\u0103 \u00eei este fric\u0103 de omul de l\u00e2ng\u0103 ea, vreau s\u0103 \u0219tie c\u0103 prima mea \u00eentrebare va fi: \u201eUnde vrei s\u0103 mergem?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a str\u00e2ns mai tare m\u00e2na mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 A\u0219a s\u0103 faci.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u0103mas mult timp una l\u00e2ng\u0103 alta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N-am reparat \u00eentr-o dup\u0103-amiaz\u0103 tot ce fusese stricat \u00een zeci de ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Unele lucruri nici nu se repar\u0103 complet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar ceva s-a oprit atunci.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Un lucru care trecuse de la bunic la mam\u0103, de la mam\u0103 la fiic\u0103 \u0219i care ar fi putut merge mai departe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama \u00eenv\u0103\u021base c\u0103 o femeie trebuie s\u0103 rabde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
F\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 vrea, \u00eencercase s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eenve\u021be acela\u0219i lucru.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Iar eu aproape c\u0103 \u00eei \u00eenv\u0103\u021basem pe copiii mei c\u0103 frica \u00eentr-o familie este normal\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
P\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd cineva a trebuit s\u0103 spun\u0103:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eAjunge.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N-am uitat palma mamei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Probabil n-o voi uita niciodat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar n-am uitat nici ziua \u00een care femeia care \u00eemi spusese:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201e\u0218i eu am m\u00e2ncat b\u0103taie \u0219i n-am plecat\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
a reu\u0219it, \u00een sf\u00e2r\u0219it, s\u0103 \u00een\u021beleag\u0103 c\u0103 asta nu fusese dovada c\u0103 eu trebuia s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fusese dovada c\u0103 \u0219i ea meritase s\u0103 plece.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Uneori este mai u\u0219or s\u0103-i spui fiicei tale \u201erabd\u0103\u201d dec\u00e2t s\u0103 prive\u0219ti \u00een urm\u0103 \u0219i s\u0103 recuno\u0219ti c\u0103 tu ai r\u0103bdat prea mult.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar cineva trebuie s\u0103 fie primul care opre\u0219te lucrurile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen familia noastr\u0103, am fost eu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu pentru c\u0103 am fost mai puternic\u0103 dec\u00e2t mama.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ci pentru c\u0103 am vrut ca, \u00eentr-o zi, fiica mea s\u0103 fie suficient de liber\u0103 \u00eenc\u00e2t s\u0103 nu trebuiasc\u0103 s\u0103 fie la fel de puternic\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cu mine s-a terminat.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Partea a 2-a \u2013 Continuarea pove\u0219tii \ud83d\udc49Fiica mea, Mara, st\u0103tea \u00een fa\u021ba mea, cu m\u00e2inile str\u00e2nse \u00een jurul unei c\u0103ni. \u2014 Mam\u0103, pot s\u0103-\u021bi spun ceva f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 te superi? \u2014 Orice. A ezitat. \u2014 Eu \u0219tiam. \u2014 Ce \u0219tiai? \u0218i-a cobor\u00e2t privirea. \u2014 C\u0103 tata te lovea. Am r\u0103mas cu lingura \u00een m\u00e2n\u0103. \u2014 … Read more<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-7643","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7643","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=7643"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7643\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7644,"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7643\/revisions\/7644"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=7643"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=7643"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=7643"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}