Partea a 2-a \u2013 Continuarea pove\u0219tii \ud83d\udc49 Mama a r\u0103mas cu m\u00e2na pe geant\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu cumva din banii pe care \u021bi-i trimit eu \u00een fiecare lun\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N-a r\u0103spuns.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mam\u0103, uit\u0103-te la mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i-a ridicat \u00eencet privirea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 I-am mai dat \u0219i ei c\u00e2te ceva.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am sim\u021bit cum mi se str\u00e2nge stomacul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 C\u00e2t?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu \u0219tiu exact.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ba \u0219tii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Irina, nu \u00eencepe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Eu \u00ee\u021bi trimit 800 de lei \u00een fiecare lun\u0103. Pentru medicamente, facturi \u0219i ce mai ai nevoie. C\u00e2t din banii \u0103\u0219tia ajunge la Daniela?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama s-a a\u0219ezat din nou.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dintr-odat\u0103, nu mai p\u0103rea femeia care intrase \u00een casa mea preg\u0103tit\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 certe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Uneori 200. Alteori 300\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De c\u00e2nd?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A t\u0103cut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De c\u00e2nd, mam\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De c\u00e2teva luni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 C\u00e2te?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu mai \u0219tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Trei? \u0218ase? Un an?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A oftat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Poate vreo opt luni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am sprijinit de mas\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Opt luni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Eu \u00eei trimiteam bani mamei pentru c\u0103 pensia nu-i ajungea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Iar mama lua o parte din ei \u0219i \u00eei d\u0103dea Danielei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dup\u0103 care m\u0103 suna tot pe mine s\u0103-i mai dau Danielei \u00eenc\u0103 500, \u00eenc\u0103 700, \u00eenc\u0103 1.200.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i c\u00e2nd \u00eemi spuneai c\u0103 s-au scumpit medicamentele?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Chiar s-au scumpit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu spun c\u0103 m-ai min\u021bit despre asta. Te \u00eentreb dac\u0103 ai r\u0103mas vreodat\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 bani pentru tine ca s\u0103-i dai ei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N-a r\u0103spuns.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
R\u0103spunsul era evident.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De ce?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama \u0219i-a fr\u0103m\u00e2ntat m\u00e2inile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 m\u0103 suna pl\u00e2ng\u00e2nd.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Spunea c\u0103 nu are.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i eu ce spuneam?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Tu nu spuneai nimic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u00e2s amar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Exact. Pentru c\u0103 eu nu te sun s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng c\u00e2nd am o rat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Irina\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu te sun c\u00e2nd am o lun\u0103 proast\u0103. Nu-\u021bi spun c\u00e2nd m\u0103 sperie o factur\u0103. Nu-\u021bi cer bani c\u00e2nd apare o cheltuial\u0103 neprev\u0103zut\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 tu te descurci.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am uitat la ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Acolo era totul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen patru cuvinte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 eu m\u0103 descurc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu asta am vrut s\u0103 spun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ba exact asta ai vrut s\u0103 spui.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama \u0219i-a cobor\u00e2t privirea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Daniela a fost \u00eentotdeauna mai\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
S-a oprit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mai ce?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mai fragil\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu, mam\u0103. Daniela a \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat c\u0103 atunci c\u00e2nd lucrurile devin grele, cineva vine \u0219i le rezolv\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Este sora ta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 N-o po\u021bi abandona.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 A nu-i finan\u021ba fiecare problem\u0103 nu \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 o abandonez.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a oftat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Tu nu \u00een\u021belegi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ba cred c\u0103 \u00eencep s\u0103 \u00een\u021beleg foarte bine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am a\u0219ezat \u00een fa\u021ba ei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 C\u00e2nd Daniela are o problem\u0103, tu spui: \u201eS\u0103raca Daniela.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama n-a r\u0103spuns.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 C\u00e2nd eu am o problem\u0103, ce spui?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u0103cere.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u201eIrina se descurc\u0103.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Atunci mama a ridicat ochii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i pentru prima dat\u0103 \u00een ziua aceea nu mai era furioas\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
P\u0103rea ru\u0219inat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Tu ai fost mereu puternic\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu m-am n\u0103scut puternic\u0103, mam\u0103. Am devenit pentru c\u0103 n-am avut \u00eencotro.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I s-au umezit ochii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Am crezut c\u0103 fac bine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i chiar \u0219tiam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu st\u0103tea acolo o femeie care pusese la cale s\u0103-mi ia banii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
St\u0103tea mama mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O mam\u0103 care f\u0103cuse aceea\u0219i gre\u0219eal\u0103 at\u00e2t de mul\u021bi ani, \u00eenc\u00e2t nici nu o mai vedea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O protejase pe Daniela pentru c\u0103 p\u0103rea mai slab\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Iar mie \u00eemi ceruse tot mai mult tocmai pentru c\u0103 p\u0103ream mai puternic\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De azi nu-\u021bi mai trimit cei 800 de lei, i-am spus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a tres\u0103rit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Vezi? \u0218tiam eu c\u0103 asta o s\u0103 faci.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Las\u0103-m\u0103 s\u0103 termin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am continuat:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dac\u0103 ai nevoie de medicamente, mi le spui \u0219i le pl\u0103tesc. Dac\u0103 ai o factur\u0103 pe care nu o po\u021bi acoperi, m\u0103 anun\u021bi. Dac\u0103 ai nevoie de cump\u0103r\u0103turi, te ajut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i banii?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu-\u021bi mai trimit lunar o sum\u0103 pe care eu cred c\u0103 o folosesc pentru tine, iar tu o dai mai departe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Sunt banii mei dup\u0103 ce mi-i dai.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Corect. \u0218i tocmai de aceea eu aleg s\u0103 nu-i mai dau \u00een felul acesta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N-a fost o conversa\u021bie frumoas\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a plecat sup\u0103rat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Trei zile nu m-a sunat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen a patra zi m-a sunat Daniela.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 E\u0219ti mul\u021bumit\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De ce?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mama mi-a spus c\u0103 nu-i mai dai bani din cauza mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu. Mama \u021bi-a spus doar jum\u0103tate din poveste.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ai l\u0103sat-o f\u0103r\u0103 ajutor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu am l\u0103sat-o f\u0103r\u0103 nimic. \u00cei pl\u0103tesc ce are nevoie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 O controlezi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eenchis ochii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Daniela, tu mi-ai cerut bani pentru chirie \u0219i ai plecat la spa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Iar \u00eencepi cu asta?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu. Tocmai termin cu asta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A t\u0103cut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu-\u021bi mai dau bani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Niciodat\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu pentru chirii imaginare. Nu pentru rate f\u0103cute f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 te g\u00e2nde\u0219ti. Nu pentru facturi pe care le am\u00e2ni ca s\u0103-\u021bi cumperi altceva.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Foarte frumos. Deci pentru tine nu mai sunt familie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dac\u0103 \u00eentr-o zi nu ai ce m\u00e2nca, \u00ee\u021bi duc m\u00e2ncare. Dac\u0103 ai o urgen\u021b\u0103 adev\u0103rat\u0103, vin. Dac\u0103 ajungi la spital, stau l\u00e2ng\u0103 tine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am f\u0103cut o pauz\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dar nu mai sunt bancomatul t\u0103u.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Daniela mi-a \u00eenchis telefonul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Au urmat c\u00e2teva luni ur\u00e2te.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama era rece.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Daniela aproape c\u0103 nu vorbea cu mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
De Pa\u0219te s-au dus am\u00e2ndou\u0103 la o veri\u0219oar\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am v\u0103zut fotografiile \u0219i m-a durut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A\u0219 min\u021bi dac\u0103 a\u0219 spune c\u0103 limitele te fac imediat fericit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Uneori te fac s\u0103 te sim\u021bi \u00eengrozitor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mai ales c\u00e2nd ai fost crescut s\u0103 crezi c\u0103 iubirea se dovede\u0219te prin c\u00e2t supor\u021bi \u0219i c\u00e2t dai.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar de data aceasta n-am cedat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i ceva s-a schimbat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mai \u00eent\u00e2i, la Daniela.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u00e2nd n-au mai existat bani de la mine \u0219i nici bani de la mama lua\u021bi din ajutorul meu, facturile n-au disp\u0103rut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A trebuit s\u0103 fac\u0103 ceva ce am\u00e2nase ani \u00eentregi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
S\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103 la un serviciu chiar \u0219i dup\u0103 ce nu i-a mai pl\u0103cut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
S-a angajat la recep\u021bia unei clinici private.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dup\u0103 prima lun\u0103 a vrut s\u0103 plece.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218efa era dificil\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Programul era obositor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I-am spus doar:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cemi pare r\u0103u c\u0103 e greu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
At\u00e2t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eLas\u0103 c\u0103 te ajut eu.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eC\u00e2t \u00ee\u021bi trebuie?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A r\u0103mas.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dup\u0103 c\u00e2teva luni, c\u00e2nd am vorbit din nou, mi-a spus ceva ce nu m\u0103 a\u0219teptam s\u0103 aud.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Cred c\u0103 m-a\u021bi ajutat prea mult.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am t\u0103cut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ce?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Tu \u0219i mama. De fiecare dat\u0103 c\u00e2nd m\u0103 loveam de ceva, \u0219tiam c\u0103 una dintre voi o s\u0103 rezolve.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu devenise peste noapte alt om.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tot mai cheltuia uneori prost.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tot se pl\u00e2ngea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar \u00eencepea s\u0103-\u0219i pl\u0103teasc\u0103 singur\u0103 via\u021ba.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cu mama a durat mai mult.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00centr-o dup\u0103-amiaz\u0103 m-a sunat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Trebuie s\u0103-mi iau medicamentele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Bine. Trimite-mi re\u021beta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A t\u0103cut pu\u021bin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu-mi mai trimi\u021bi mie banii?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cenc\u0103 nu ai \u00eencredere \u00een mine?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am g\u00e2ndit \u00eenainte s\u0103 r\u0103spund.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Am \u00eencredere c\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi iube\u0219ti ambele fete. Dar nu mai vreau s\u0103 finan\u021bez felul \u00een care alegi \u00eentre ele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A doua zi i-am dus medicamentele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am b\u0103ut o cafea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La un moment dat, mama s-a uitat la mine \u0219i a spus:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Poate am gre\u0219it cu voi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N-am r\u0103spuns imediat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Cum?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pe Daniela am tot ap\u0103rat-o pentru c\u0103 mi-era fric\u0103 s\u0103 nu cad\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi \u0219i-a frecat m\u00e2inile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pe tine nu te-am ap\u0103rat aproape niciodat\u0103, pentru c\u0103 eram sigur\u0103 c\u0103 te ridici singur\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-au usturat ochii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A continuat:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i cred c\u0103 am ajuns s\u0103 te pedepsesc pentru c\u0103 te descurcai.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Asta fusese propozi\u021bia pe care o a\u0219teptasem ani \u00eentregi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu \u201e\u00eemi pare r\u0103u pentru bani\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Banii puteau fi c\u00e2\u0219tiga\u021bi din nou.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Voiam doar s\u0103 recunoasc\u0103 faptul c\u0103 \u0219i eu avusesem voie s\u0103 fiu obosit\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Rela\u021bia noastr\u0103 nu s-a reparat \u00eentr-o dup\u0103-amiaz\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar s-a schimbat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a \u00eencetat s\u0103 m\u0103 mai sune ca intermediar pentru problemele Danielei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Daniela a \u00eencetat treptat s\u0103-mi mai cear\u0103 bani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Iar eu am \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat s\u0103 ajut f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 sacrific automat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dac\u0103 mama are nevoie de ceva, sunt acolo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dac\u0103 Daniela are o problem\u0103 real\u0103, nu-i \u00eentorc spatele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar \u00eenainte s\u0103 scot portofelul, m\u0103 \u00eentreb:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eO ajut s\u0103 se ridice sau doar fac \u00een locul ei ceea ce trebuie s\u0103 \u00eenve\u021be s\u0103 fac\u0103 singur\u0103?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mult timp am crezut c\u0103 problema familiei mele era Daniela.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu era.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Problema era rolul pe care ni-l \u00eemp\u0103r\u021biser\u0103m f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 ne d\u0103m seama.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ea era cea fragil\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Eu eram cea puternic\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ea avea voie s\u0103 cad\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Eu aveam obliga\u021bia s\u0103 o prind.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i, pentru c\u0103 m\u0103 descurcam, nimeni nu se mai \u00eentreba c\u00e2t m\u0103 costa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen familia noastr\u0103, cea mai mare gre\u0219eal\u0103 a mea fusese s\u0103 m\u0103 descurc prea bine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
To\u021bi ajunseser\u0103 s\u0103 cread\u0103 c\u0103, dac\u0103 eu pot duce mai mult, \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 sunt obligat\u0103 s-o fac.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Partea a 2-a \u2013 Continuarea pove\u0219tii \ud83d\udc49 Mama a r\u0103mas cu m\u00e2na pe geant\u0103. \u2014 Nu cumva din banii pe care \u021bi-i trimit eu \u00een fiecare lun\u0103? N-a r\u0103spuns. \u2014 Mam\u0103, uit\u0103-te la mine. \u0218i-a ridicat \u00eencet privirea. \u2014 I-am mai dat \u0219i ei c\u00e2te ceva. Am sim\u021bit cum mi se str\u00e2nge stomacul. \u2014 C\u00e2t? … Read more<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5864","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5864","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5864"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5864\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5865,"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5864\/revisions\/5865"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5864"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5864"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5864"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}