Partea a 2-a \u2013 Continuarea pove\u0219tii \ud83d\udc49
Mama \u0219i-a \u021binut m\u00e2na c\u00e2teva secunde pe geanta de l\u00e2ng\u0103 scaun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ceva ce n-am avut curajul s\u0103-\u021bi spun \u00een to\u021bi anii \u0103\u0219tia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am privit-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Spune-mi acum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i-a cobor\u00e2t ochii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cen seara \u00een care ai plecat\u2026 am vrut s\u0103 vin dup\u0103 tine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am sim\u021bit cum mi se \u00eencordeaz\u0103 tot corpul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dar n-ai venit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Atunci nu-mi spune ce ai vrut s\u0103 faci. Spune-mi de ce n-ai f\u0103cut-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama \u0219i-a str\u00e2ns degetele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 mi-a fost fric\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u00e2s amar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i mie \u00eemi era fric\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu, mam\u0103. Eu aveam 19 ani. Am plecat din casa mea f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 \u0219tiu unde o s\u0103 dorm. Tu erai mama.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A dat din cap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ai dreptate.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u0103 preg\u0103tisem pentru explica\u021bii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru \u201edar \u0219i tat\u0103l t\u0103u\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru \u201enu \u0219tii prin ce treceam\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru orice lucru care s\u0103 mute vina pu\u021bin mai departe de ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar n-a f\u0103cut-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Am fost la\u0219\u0103, a spus. At\u00e2t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am t\u0103cut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ani \u00eentregi m-am convins c\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n cu tat\u0103l t\u0103u pentru familie. C\u0103 \u00eencerc s\u0103 \u021bin casa \u00eentreag\u0103. Dar adev\u0103rul este c\u0103 mi-era fric\u0103 s\u0103 plec. \u0218i, ca s\u0103 pot tr\u0103i cu frica mea, am \u00eenceput s\u0103 v\u0103 cer vou\u0103 s\u0103 suporta\u021bi lucruri pe care eu \u00eens\u0103mi nu aveam curajul s\u0103 le schimb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi s-au umplut ochii de lacrimi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i c\u00e2nd am plecat?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama \u0219i-a \u0219ters obrazul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 M-am sim\u021bit abandonat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u0103mas uluit\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Tu?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da. \u0218tiu cum sun\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Eu plecasem pentru c\u0103 nu mai puteam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu acum. Atunci am transformat plecarea ta \u00eentr-o ofens\u0103 \u00eempotriva mea. Era mai u\u0219or s\u0103 spun c\u0103 e\u0219ti nerecunosc\u0103toare dec\u00e2t s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentreb de ce fata mea preferase s\u0103 plece dec\u00e2t s\u0103 mai r\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103 cu noi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 mult timp, n-am sim\u021bit furie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Doar o triste\u021be imens\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Asta era ce nu puteai s\u0103-mi spui?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a cl\u0103tinat din cap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i-a deschis geanta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru o clip\u0103 am crezut c\u0103 va scoate fotografii sau vreo scrisoare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N-a scos nimic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A \u00eenchis-o la loc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Am vrut s\u0103-\u021bi ar\u0103t ceva. Dar cred c\u0103 iar \u00eencercam s\u0103 fac lucrurile mai u\u0219oare pentru mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ce?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Camera ta. Am p\u0103strat-o aproape la fel.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eenchis ochii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen\u021belesesem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pozele cu perdelele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Camera v\u0103ruit\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Lucrurile mele p\u0103strate.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru mama, toate erau dovezi c\u0103 \u00eemi l\u0103sase un loc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru mine, locul acela nu mai \u00eensemna acas\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mam\u0103\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Las\u0103-m\u0103 s\u0103 termin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Vocea \u00eei tremura.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 C\u00e2nd te-am chemat \u00eenapoi, mi-am imaginat c\u0103 dac\u0103 vii acas\u0103, dac\u0103 dormi din nou \u00een camera ta, dac\u0103 bem cafeaua diminea\u021ba \u00eempreun\u0103\u2026 \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 am reparat ce am f\u0103cut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-a privit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dar nu te-am \u00eentrebat ce vrei tu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Asta m-a lovit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru c\u0103 era adev\u0103rat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De asta am venit ast\u0103zi, am spus. Ca s\u0103-\u021bi spun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama \u0219i-a \u00eencle\u0219tat m\u00e2inile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu te \u00eentorci.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu era o \u00eentrebare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i mie mi-au dat lacrimile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 E din cauza Elenei \u0219i a lui Sorin?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am respirat ad\u00e2nc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dar ei sunt familia ta acum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i ei sunt familia mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a tres\u0103rit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dar asta nu \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 tu nu mai e\u0219ti mama mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Atunci de ce nu vii acas\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am privit-o direct.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 te pot iubi f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 mai locuiesc cu tine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A t\u0103cut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i te pot ierta f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentorc \u00een locul \u00een care am \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat s\u0103-mi fie fric\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama \u0219i-a acoperit gura cu m\u00e2na.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 M\u0103d\u0103lina\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu spun asta ca s\u0103 te pedepsesc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mult timp am crezut c\u0103, dac\u0103 te iert, trebuie s\u0103 ne prefacem c\u0103 totul poate fi ca \u00eenainte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am cl\u0103tinat din cap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Eu nu mai vreau \u201eca \u00eenainte\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i atunci ce vrei?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am g\u00e2ndit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 S\u0103 \u00eencepem de aici.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama s-a uitat nedumerit\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De la masa asta. Tu \u00een casa ta. Eu \u00een via\u021ba mea. Ne vedem. Vorbim. Poate \u00eentr-o zi o s\u0103 pot veni la tine f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 simt c\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentorc \u00een trecut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i dac\u0103 nu po\u021bi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Atunci nu pot.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A pl\u00e2ns din nou.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar de data asta nu mi-a cerut s\u0103 schimb r\u0103spunsul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am stat aproape dou\u0103 ore \u00een cofet\u0103rie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi-a povestit despre desp\u0103r\u021bire.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Despre c\u00e2t de greu \u00eei fusese s\u0103 admit\u0103 c\u0103 lucrurile nu se vor schimba singure.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Eu i-am povestit despre anii \u00een care aproape tres\u0103ream c\u00e2nd auzeam o cheie \u00een u\u0219\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Despre Elena.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Despre Sorin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Despre prima farfurie cu ciorb\u0103 pe care n-am putut s-o m\u0103n\u00e2nc pentru c\u0103 \u00een apartamentul lor era prea lini\u0219te.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a pl\u00e2ns c\u00e2nd a auzit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ei au f\u0103cut pentru tine ce trebuia s\u0103 fac eu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N-am r\u0103spuns imediat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Au fost acolo c\u00e2nd am avut nevoie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a dat din cap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Atunci s\u0103 nu-i sco\u021bi niciodat\u0103 din via\u021ba ta pentru mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cred c\u0103 aceea a fost prima propozi\u021bie prin care am \u00eenceput cu adev\u0103rat s-o cred.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u00e2nd ne-am ridicat s\u0103 plec\u0103m, mama s-a apropiat de mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
De data asta nu \u0219i-a mai deschis bra\u021bele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pot?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-a \u00eentrebat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
At\u00e2t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am f\u0103cut eu pasul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219at-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Scurt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu ca \u00een filme.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu s-a reparat copil\u0103ria mea \u00een bra\u021bele ei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar pentru prima dat\u0103 mama a\u0219teptase s\u0103-i dau eu voie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru mine, asta a \u00eensemnat ceva.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u00e2nd am ajuns la Elena \u0219i Sorin, era sear\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sorin era \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103rie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ei?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ce \u201eei\u201d?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Te-ai mutat?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Bine. C\u0103 tocmai am pl\u0103tit curentul \u0219i acum trebuie s\u0103-\u021bi consumi partea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Sorin!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena i-a dat un cot.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 r\u00e2d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi Elena s-a uitat atent la mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 E\u0219ti bine?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu chiar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Vrei s\u0103 vorbe\u0219ti?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mai t\u00e2rziu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Bine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i asta a fost tot.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu m-au \u00eentrebat ce alesesem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu mi-au cerut s\u0103 le spun c\u0103 \u00eei prefer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu au transformat \u00eentoarcerea mea \u00eentr-o victorie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi-au l\u0103sat pur \u0219i simplu loc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Au trecut lunile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 m\u0103 v\u0103d cu mama.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La \u00eenceput doar \u00een ora\u0219.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi am mers la ea pentru o cafea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Prima dat\u0103 c\u00e2nd am intrat din nou \u00een apartament, mi-au tremurat m\u00e2inile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a observat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dac\u0103 vrei, plec\u0103m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu \u201estai\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu \u201etermin\u0103 cu prostiile\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu \u201ee casa ta\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eDac\u0103 vrei, plec\u0103m.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u0103mas dou\u0103zeci de minute.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Data urm\u0103toare, aproape o or\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00centr-o zi am intrat \u00een vechea mea camer\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era \u00eentr-adev\u0103r v\u0103ruit\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Perdelele erau noi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u00e2teva lucruri de-ale mele r\u0103m\u0103seser\u0103 pe un raft.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama st\u0103tea \u00een prag.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Vrei s\u0103 le iei?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am privit camera.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Unele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Restul?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 F\u0103 ce vrei cu ele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A dat din cap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i pentru prima dat\u0103 camera aceea a devenit doar o camer\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu o datorie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu o promisiune.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu un loc \u00een care trebuia s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentorc pentru a demonstra c\u0103-mi iubesc mama.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Rela\u021bia noastr\u0103 nu a devenit perfect\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Uneori mama revenea la vechile reflexe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Uneori eu m\u0103 \u00eenchideam imediat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar acum puteam s\u0103 spun:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu vreau s\u0103 discut asta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i ea \u00eenv\u0103\u021base s\u0103 r\u0103spund\u0103:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Bine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena \u0219i Sorin au r\u0103mas \u00een via\u021ba mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu ca \u00eenlocuitori pentru p\u0103rin\u021bii mei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu ca ni\u0219te oameni c\u0103rora le datoram ceva.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pur \u0219i simplu ca familie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00centr-o duminic\u0103, mult mai t\u00e2rziu, mama m-a \u00eentrebat:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Elena \u0219i Sorin ce mai fac?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Bine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A ezitat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Poate\u2026 c\u00e2ndva\u2026 dac\u0103 vor \u0219i ei, mi-ar pl\u0103cea s\u0103-i cunosc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am uitat la ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De ce?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a z\u00e2mbit trist.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 au avut grij\u0103 de fata mea \u00eentr-o perioad\u0103 \u00een care eu n-am \u0219tiut s-o fac.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N-am stabilit atunci nicio \u00eent\u00e2lnire.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar am plecat acas\u0103 g\u00e2ndindu-m\u0103 la c\u00e2t de mult se schimbase un singur lucru:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
mama nu mai \u00eencerca s\u0103 \u0219tearg\u0103 oamenii care m\u0103 ajutaser\u0103 ca s\u0103-\u0219i recapete locul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cencepuse s\u0103 \u00een\u021beleag\u0103 c\u0103 iubirea nu este un concurs.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mult timp am crezut c\u0103 trebuie s\u0103 aleg.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama sau Elena.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
S\u00e2ngele sau oamenii care \u00eemi oferiser\u0103 lini\u0219te.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Trecutul sau via\u021ba pe care mi-o construisem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu trebuia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Puteam s\u0103-mi iubesc mama \u0219i s\u0103-i pun limite.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Puteam s-o iert \u0219i s\u0103 nu m\u0103 \u00eentorc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Puteam s\u0103-i fiu fiic\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 mai fiu copilul care a\u0219tepta ca \u00eentr-o zi totul s\u0103 devin\u0103, prin minune, bine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Iar Elena \u0219i Sorin m\u0103 \u00eenv\u0103\u021baser\u0103 ceva ce nimeni nu reu\u0219ise s\u0103-mi explice \u00een 19 ani:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
uneori cea mai sigur\u0103 form\u0103 de iubire nu este cea care spune \u201ee\u0219ti a mea\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Este cea care \u00ee\u021bi deschide u\u0219a \u0219i \u00ee\u021bi spune:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201ePo\u021bi s\u0103 pleci. \u0218i dac\u0103 vei avea nevoie, po\u021bi s\u0103 te \u00eentorci.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Partea a 2-a \u2013 Continuarea pove\u0219tii \ud83d\udc49Mama \u0219i-a \u021binut m\u00e2na c\u00e2teva secunde pe geanta de l\u00e2ng\u0103 scaun. \u2014 Ceva ce n-am avut curajul s\u0103-\u021bi spun \u00een to\u021bi anii \u0103\u0219tia. Am privit-o. \u2014 Spune-mi acum. \u0218i-a cobor\u00e2t ochii. \u2014 \u00cen seara \u00een care ai plecat\u2026 am vrut s\u0103 vin dup\u0103 tine. Am sim\u021bit cum mi se … Read more<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5835","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5835","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5835"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5835\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5836,"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5835\/revisions\/5836"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5835"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5835"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stiri-faine.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5835"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}